new beginnings

What's in a name?

2012-01-12T15:30:00.000+05:30

Have you ever said your name out loud and felt it strangely unfamiliar?
That repeating it often makes it even more stranger and stranger?
When you do say your name it sounds distant, and you are reminded of all the attributes that are bound to that name. It feels like you are addressing a different person. We are used to having our name called out by other people, but seldom comes out of our mouth itself.

I wonder

2012-01-12T15:23:00.001+05:30

Sometimes, I wonder, do I really care what other people think? And again sometimes, I can't handle the truth about some things. Then again I think, "Let them go to hell, Who cares". Sometimes, they just seem like things so trivial, so childish, but is that what people really care about? Childish things? The world is not what it seemed like when I was growing up, and to be frank, I'm really disappointed. Things made more sense when I was younger, and now, the world is making less and less sense. Things I never used to bother about suddenly come out in the open and look me in the face. Is that called responsibility or is that just bad luck?

So is this called growing up?? Learning less and less of what you think you know? Unlearning and relearning? In this constant quest I really don't know where I fit, everything I've believed in till now is irrelevant, strange and untrue. Maybe things have changed so drastically that I wasn't around to make sense of what's happening till it hit me now.

Deja vu?

2012-01-01T10:29:00.002+05:30

Have you ever had those unusual incidents....Like when you hear something for the very first time and get the feeling that you've never seen or heard it before..And then you start seeing that same thing everywhere...On posters, television, in magazines,etc and then you hear people talking about it...Something that you've probably never cared to notice before suddenly comes forth everyday..It's a strange feeling if you ask me.. Something that's been in front of you for so many days, which you've suddenly come across keeps appearing again and again...deja vu anyone?

A New Year

2012-01-01T10:12:00.000+05:30

Wow, another year just whizzed by.
When the clock struck midnight last night, it took me more than a minute to believe it. IT'S A BRAND SPANKING NEW YEAR ALREADY?!.

Lots of things to look forward to this year. Graduation. New beginnings. My first job. My first salary. Very eventful year this time around.:) (And of course, the famed 2012. :D)
First of, need to blow off some steam. Last year was pretty damn hectic.
And coming to resolutions, none. Well, okay, blogging more often (at least once in a year, LOL).

There is a joke running around-
An optimist stays up till midnight to welcome the new year, a pessimist, on the other hand, stays up till midnight to make sure the old year passes. :P

Well, I guess everyone wants a new year. Curious about the unknown. Looking forward to the newness of things. A fresh start. A chance to make another list of things-to-do to just throw away (as for most of us).

Hope this year turns out better than the best. Cheers for a new and happening year!:)

At Land's End

2008-08-18T21:17:00.002+05:30

I sat in the moonlit darkness
The violent darkness swiftly crept towards me

It broke into edges of white,

Retreating back to where it came from

Spraying a soft mist on me

My hand struck against a hard,white piece of earth
That very much resembled the crescent moon hiding and seeking in the night sky

It had such an intricate design

I kept it near to my ear and what did I find?

The same sounds as that were around me

The same black ocean

A thing so small,

Has the power to mimic the endless sea?

Wave after wave crashed onto the beach
Each with a countless amount of energy

And a power that never dries out,

But merely grows stronger and stronger

A huge wave engulfed me,

This time almost pulled me in with it

Frozen and drenched to the skin, I stood up

Standing at land's end, staring into the infinte element of water

I felt a pang of insignificance

Like how a drop of water is insignificant to the sea,

And yet how the same drop is the sea...

Destination Unknown

2008-06-20T12:07:00.000+05:30

Am I aboard some fast train
With its destination unknown
With people getting on and off at their stops,
Once off, gone forever?

And yet seems like the ones nearest to me
Have a similar destination unknown
Perhaps travelling on the wrong train
Who perhaps have missed their stop

And then again maybe, it was meant to be
That we met
Destiny,
Or maybe sheer luck

Where is this train meandering
So deceitfully maneuvering the tracks
Seeming to be slow
But so full of breakneck occurances

And then speeding up again
To that destination
Ahead I see the tracks leading to somewhere in the fog
An endless journey into nowhere

Sometimes i am reminded
Of a rollercoaster
The gentle, steady uphill,
And then the scary, steep plunging into the earth

So this train journey is a gamble
Where I decide where to get off or ramble
To the journey beyond
To the destination unknown

Lost and Found

2008-06-20T11:13:00.000+05:30

Just lost
Then, in another blink I see
That everything is right there
My life, and everyone in it

Again another flash of thought
And again an unrecognisable feeling
A sad feeling of loneliness
That everything is breaking away

Everyone seems so far
In that moment of thought
Is it a reason to worry
The bitter pinch of reality perhaps?

And again another breath
Everything is just the way it used to be
The fun, the frolic
Dreamland, maybe?

What happened till now is forever lost
And what is going to happen is indeed a mystery
Finding myself lost in thoughts
I compel myself to come out of that history

Nothing is for keeping
Nothing is for real
For everything that was immortal till now
Is slowly slipping away into the black hole of time.....

lluvia

2008-06-09T19:50:00.001+05:30

The sweet smell of earth
The soft pattering on my window
The flash of lightning
And the booming of thunder

The trees dancing in the malicious wind
With the zephyr in my hair,
I plunged into the darkness,
With a feeling of defiance

The intoxicating aroma
Filled my lungs
The rain had begun
To intensify again

Somber,
I stood in the rain
Which drowned my tears
And slowly started to wash out all my thoughts

Above a sliver of ivory,
In the dark ebony
Irony,
I thought

The struggle till now was torment
Then it was all clear,
Even in the gloom
The pain was inevitable

With a whole heart I stood there
In the melancholic darkness
When a lightning struck
As if to show me my place.

The thoughts came back
The words, the emotions attached to them
The stronger they came, the louder they got
The harder I tried to flush them out of my head.

At last I achieved
The silence, the calmth
There was no more sound
Except for the deafening rain

note:lluvia is spanish for rain

Trapped....

2008-06-05T22:20:00.000+05:30

Recently, I had the unfortunate experience of being trapped.... in an elevator. It was one of the most scariest experiences of my life (although right now can think of anything scarier that happened). Anyway, though im not a claustrophobic person, the thought of being stuck in a metal box with no way out and with fifteen other people was pretty terrifying, considering the fact that there was nobody outside to come to our rescue and absolutely no signal to call anyone. I started remembering the stuck-in-elevators scenarios; The ones from the movies I mean (especially the beginning of Speed). One dude kept ringing the bell inside the elevator which nobody seemed to hear on the outside. And then all of us were frantically trying to get atleast a call through to get us rescued. Fortunately, the bhaiyas in the lift banged the doors ( which started to whine) and yanked them open....If it weren't for that frantic effort I don't know how we would've come out alive....

Blue

2008-06-05T20:10:00.001+05:30

Blue.
Just shades of blue
And a huge golden circle,
Set right in the middle

It was a cloudless sky
And a shipless sea
Was the sky a reflection of the water
Or the turquoise blue water the reflection of the sky?

Ahead, the waves seemed intimdating,
Eating up anybody who went too far
And got in the way.
It seemed like war

The shining sun started to sink into the water,
Taking with it all the blue
The sky got redder and redder with each passing minute
And the sea, orange.

For a split second, the scene changed
It was too beautiful to describe
Or to capture
It was twilight time

Finally, there was darkness
Complete black,
Which was endless.
Just black.

Snowflakes

2008-06-05T19:29:00.000+05:30

It was a white, cold day out.
As I stood outside in my backyard,
A tiny white fleck softly caressed the tip of my nose
There had been a blizzard for three days straight.

It cleared up finally,
Seemed like an eager month's wait
The days got colder and colder,
And the nights, freezing.

The sun was rising now,
As if to greet me
There was a faint smell of hot chocolate somewhere
And the familiar voices which revelled in the background

Slowly voices became louder
And people came out of their houses
As if they came out of hiding,
After a long hibernation

The dew drops on trees
Looked like glistening diamonds, frozen.
A snowflake landed straight into my palm
Which seemed fascinating enough

Then, a hard, cold piece of snow flew right across my face
With sounds of laughter,
And seemed to bring me back to my senses.
The vast expanse of white was very inviting.

By evening, an army of snowmen was formed
And another of angels
It was the best winter ever,
And yet, it had only begun!!!

Goodbye........

2008-02-12T12:54:00.000+05:30

Goodbye,
Its the final word we say.
But why now?
Goodbye is too far away

Because life,
With its unexpected twists and turns
Never requires a solemn goodbye..
All that matters is now.

An occasional walk down memory lane
The nostalgic memories we savoured together still linger in my head
It all seems like it happened just yesterday
And that today is so far from that "yesterday"

The wonderful experiences,
The ups and downs
It seems all too real..
But is it just a dream........

Don't wake me then,
To a tomorrow which is lifeless and no longer as sweet as "yesterday"

To the year that was....
Cheers

Alchemist

2007-12-23T22:46:00.001+05:30

Who are we
But alchemists
Searching for hidden secrets
To turn everything to gold.

Sometimes foolish
Searching for something that seems hidden
Though already is right in front of us.

Little do we realise
That all the power is bestowed in us
Waiting, to be erupted out like a volcano.
And yet, so foolish and frail we appear to be.

Lost in the thoughts of what is and what is not
Oblivious of the fact that nothing is immortal,
Except the power that has created this universe,
And the power to destroy it all.

Aren't we all alchemists
Searching for the gold within..........

A Silent Witness

2007-12-23T22:16:00.000+05:30

There you are, so calm and serene,
A witness to all our actions and faults
A silent spectator
Sometimes so full of life
Sometimes, disappearing

Then again you shine
With all your might
So bright
So peaceful.

Like a beacon of light for all of us
Who seem to be lost,
Telling us, reminding us
Of the great power who created us all.

And then again disappearing
For a fortnight,
Behind that great sky wall.

The Snow Peaked Mountain

2007-12-23T21:49:00.000+05:30

There it is,
The snow peaked mountain
The highest one of them all
So beautiful,so majestic.
And yet,so far away

With a thousand steps I climb
And yet victory with its lending hand,
Is too far away.
Again another thousand steps or so i climb,
Striving to reach the invincible
And yet again I fall, so meek.

A thousand more steps I crawl
Grasping every piece of mountain I can feel
Alas, Triumph!!
I revel in my little heart,
Now so full of life I have given to it,
Because of my little victory.
Then yonder I see,
Another high peak
Waiting just for me.

Again my journey starts....